Truthfully, I am starting to doubt if this is still TSW and not some other underlying problem. For the fairly little amount of steroids I used, I feel as if my withdrawal is going on way too long. The other day I started drinking Chinese medicine again, and this time it made me very itchy and rashy around my shoulders and arms, places that were healed a while ago. I have been told this is the medicine's way of bringing out toxins stored in my cells and releasing them through my skin. Overall, I am just super confused about this bout of flares because they are so abnormal. I also feel like I am reaching a breaking point. I do not know how much longer I can put my life on hold, as I can't stay cooped up inside my house forever! It's depressing to have to keep cancelling plans because I'm i such bad shape. I also feel guilty because my parents have to keep worrying about me...I feel like they don't know what to do as well.
It is truly frustrating because I do not even know why I am flaring so badly. Is it TSW still running its course? Is it diet? Is it dust in my house? There are so many factors that seem to be involved that I am a loss with what to do. I just desperately need to see relief at this point. I haven't seen it in months, and if I could have a break I think my faith would be restored in my skin. However, these constant and worsening flares have put me at my lowest point mentally.
Sorry for the rant, but I just needed to get this all out. I hope you all are faring well, and if not feel free to drop me a message and we can be in this together!
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