Feeling Down

Sorry for sounding so depressing lately but things have been going downhill for me. Apparently I'm back to flaring once a week with the whole package: oozing, raised bumps, redness, deep itching and all. I think I also had insomnia tonight as well, something that I haven't had for 6 months now. Plus, I have a ballet recital that I have been working on for months coming up in a few days and God knows if I'll be able to do it..I'm especially discouraged this time because I have desperately tried not to let tsw interfere with one of the only things that make me happy, dance. All this time I have worked so hard to be able to perform in this show, trucking on despite how horrible my skin was making me feel. And today, waking up to oozing and painful skin, having a 5 hour rehearsal to go to, I just couldn't do it. If tsw is supposed to teach me some sort of lesson or turn me into a better person, I'm not seeing how. It is ruining my senior year and the last times I will probably ever perform on stage...things I will never be able to relive. Please pray for me as I will be for all of us suffering.

Month 13

...is not looking good so far. I've just started flaring up today, which makes twice in one month already. I knew I was flaring because I could feel the raised, red, bumpy skin form around my neck that oozed a bit. Also, all of the tsw affected areas on me just seemed to get redder and radiate heat. I am really disheartened that I'm still flaring like this because I thought I would be healed at this point...it just makes me wonder when I will ever heal. Will I be walking for graduation with a red face? Will I start my first day of college still itching and flaking? I pray not, but it seems like this is what the future holds for me.

Not again...

 I guess this flare was not so mild after all...

The redness around my shoulders is slowly creeping back toward the center of my chest which I thought had cleared up...

Arms/wrists are bad as usual...

Hopefully this is just a phase and everything will return to normal. I so wish that I could simply do a system restore on my skin and revert it to how it was 2 years ago.

1 Year TSW Anniversary!

I have officially made it to one year!! Honestly I thought I would be healed by now, but that's ok. I have made a lot of progress and have recently had a flare, but it was way milder than my previous ones. Overall my condition isn't too good, but there are many good things as well. My entire front chest, which used to be covered in rough, red skin has returned completely to normal! It is so smooth and soft that I can't even believe it used to be affected. This has given me hope that some day my entire body will return to such great skin. Also, I don't flare often. Most of the time I have a period of calm skin that is still a bit pink, but manageable. One year down, and hopefully a very short time more to go. Keep on going everyone!